TESTIMONIALS

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Thanks you for such a wonderful journey this past weekend. I feel like I now understand the link I made to feel unworthy. During my journey I realize that I am such a wonderful person and deserve to treat myself as I am the Queen. I can see how I have attracted things in my life to feel the constant guilt. I attracted a the Father of my children cause the guilt felt safe and now we are separating. I feel ready to ask for what I want because I am so worthy. I have so much to teach and be int his world. During the journey I saw my hands fully for me for the first time. 
 
I look forward to continuing on this journey with both of you!!
 
Thanks for holding space for magic.
Sandy
Thank you Lis for organizing this beautiful experience. Thank you Lana and Ivan for leading us through our devine and healing journeys. And I also want to thank everyone for trusting one another and creating a loving and supportive group. 
 
I have felt so emotionally exhausted that I can't put my testimonial into words until now...This is my first poem in life...about life:
 
 
Life is so long like an endless river, that is winding through many lives before and immersing into the ocean where there are many ones after,
 
Life is so short like a glimpse, that is never possible to plan my last hug or last "I love you",
 
Life to me is a glass of great wine, that has many layers and flavors both sweet and bitter,  
 
I want to savor every drop when I dance my talks, connect with you and love you,
 
And most importantly to give myself unconditional love so that I can shine my light on you
Danna 丹娜
So it’s been 24 hours since the beautiful and amazing mushroom ceremony this past Saturday 
night! I wanted to take a moment to write down my experience to ensure I do my best to capture as much of that magical night as possible. 
 
I’ve already feel much of the amazing effects from that night, including a sense of lightness, assurance that everything will work out, and realizing I’ve let go a lot of worry and limiting beliefs that didn’t serve me. I feel a sense of peace, calm, and greater awareness and consciousness within. 
 
I was excited for Saturday night on what the possibility of the out come from the event would be, but also a tad nervous with never doing something like this before. Despite this feeling, The environment, space and everyone there gave me a sense of safeness and easiness to be able to let go and journey to the divine. 
 
When the medicine first hit me, I felt it immediately- it felt really nice, and The journey Started. The music brought different journeys and moods and my mind was on so many creative intricacies. 
 
Throughout the whole time I felt god and angels were with me, and guiding me to the message they want me to hear and I learned to trust in the process and most importantly have trust in me. 
 
I felt such an overwhelming sense of love and gratitude for all my loved ones in my life, it was so beautiful and brought lots of grateful tears to my eyes. 
 
Another message I got was to cherish and spend more time with my loved ones including my friends who are my family and of course my parents, who are getting older- to tell my mom and dad how much I love them more. 
 
Other take aways I got was to stop worrying about societal pressures on me like my relationship status, marriage and kids etc. I had a moment where I knew everything will work our for me, and to bring the assurance I have with finances to my personal life as well.
 
A key point that I got, was through my journeying -I felt I should be less selfish, more selfless, and considerate. But what Ivan taught me was that selfishness is the wounded ego - and a protective strategy I used to survive before, by not allowing love to connect to my heart. I’ve put shields of protective layers around my heart against love/self love. So I learned to trust my ego instead of trusting in myself. 
 
There were 2 paradox Ivan and Lana shared with me:
 
1. People who are most selfish love themselves the least
2. People who can connect to their selfishness are themselves kind, generous, and loving as they wouldn’t be able to see their own selfishness if they weren’t all these qualities in the first place.
 
Be thankful selfishness has come to me, to teach me not to be selfish. 
 
And Udo made a great point, that as kids we are taught not to be selfish, and this is because we aren’t serving the other persons agenda. When in fact, we arent selfish enough- especially to ourselves! If we were to do good for ourselves, take care of ourselves and have so much love for ourselves that we would be giving NOT out of duty but giving because of OVERFLOW. 
 
I Now feel a sense of peace, calm, and greater awareness and consciousness within. 
 
Thank you Ivan, Lana, Lisa and everyone who was a part of this special night - you all made it extra special. 
 
I love you all! ❤️
Denise Mai
"Although I didn't journey as deep as I did during my first spirit plant ceremony, I got exactly what I needed and not what I thought I wanted. I spent the first half of the ceremony worrying too much about whether the participants will have a good experience, consequently, I was not able to dive into my journey. I spent the whole night judging myself on how I could have made the experience better for everyone and little did I know, every participant had a mind blowing experience! 
 
The biggest lesson I got from the ceremony is that it's way easier to give than to receive. Apparently, receiving requires much greater effort than giving! Ivan, our spiritual guide who lead us through this journey has a profound way of challenging us to think differently and seeing our lives in balance and duality! 
 
Unlike our first mushroom ceremony which did not consist of a integration part, the sharing of experiences really helped each of us learn through each other's journeys and this part is fundamental to our transformation.
 
Finally, I'm so happy that Dave was willing to bring awareness to his OCD tendencies and the impact it has on our family. I feel like he's grown so much through our psychedelics journeys, I'm so excited about what our future holds if we continue on this path of living, learning and growing together ❤️
Lisa
My experience was a mix of good and bad. Let’s start with the good. 
 
Lana and Ivan were such amazing guides for the ceremony. They are like the Abbott and Costello of spiritual guides! They were so kind, so supportive, and had amazing knowledge and spiritual wisdom to share with us all.
 

The location for the ceremony was a lovely house, where all of my needs were met. It was comfortable, safe, and they provided all the food and drinks necessary for me to be satisfied.

On the downside, I did not have what I would call a satisfying spiritual experience. I saw strange things when I closed my eyes, but I could not derive any meaning from it. It just felt weird. I was frustrated because I could tell that everyone around me was having much more profound experiences. By no means, do I blame Ivan or Lana because I know the medicine worked very effectively on other people. It’s just something inside of myself that prevented it from working.

 
All said and done, I would definitely recommend this experience to others, but I don’t think I would do it again because it seems like my brain isn’t wired correctly to let the medicine do it’s work.
 
XXXX Vancouver

I was initially apprehensive about attending the Witnessing Ceremony with Ivan and Lana, mostly due to my own introverted issues of being afraid to try new things and open up with strangers. I had done a similar breath-work ceremony in the past however which I really got a lot out of. I trusted that this could have the same power, and I can thankfully attest that this was an even more powerful experience!

During the Ceremony I was able to get deeper and witness that I needed to get back to doing a couple of hobbies in my life that have brought me a great feeling of joy that's been lacking in my life for the past few years which have been all work and not much play for me. More importantly though I was able to witness that I was holding a lot of shame and guilt inside of me for not being completely honest with my wife about certain aspects of our life. It felt amazing to come to that realization, grieve about it during the ceremony and gain the insight and courage to have a challenging conversation and be completely open with the person I love most, which I'm sure will only strengthen our bond together. I'm not sure if coming to that realization would have been possible without attending such an event. 
I'm looking forward to enjoying my new found clarity and to attending future ceremonies for further exploration and growth! 

My deepest thanks to Ivan and Lana

S. K. Vancouver

Lana and Ivan, please see testimonial below.
Words cannot express my gratitude for you both.
I can't wait to connect again.

I am really forward to working with Lana and Ivan again. 
It has truly been a gift and utmost honour to work with them.
Having experienced unguided journeys previously, the guided journey led by Lana and Ivan is day and night in comparison. I would highly recommend anyone consider healing journeys to work with them.

At one point during the healing journey, I looked at the room filled with 13 participants, all expressing themselves freely, some of us were crawling on the floor, some of us were crying. I looked up at Lana and Ivan, sitting there, holding space, "orchestrating" the healing energy, overseeing all of us. The beautiful lullaby like music filled the room. It dawned on me that I am witnessing all of us we in a Cosmic Nursery.

We are all children, learning ourselves, finding our way again. 

Thank you "mom and dad".
Love,

Iris Vancouver

Dear Lana and Ivan,
 
Thank you for providing an opportunity for us to work with the medicine. It is a blessing to us all that you are bravely sharing your energy and experience to help others. Your teachings, guidance and support, along with the beautiful energy of the group, have had what I know will be a lasting impact on my life. I am so grateful to you all and the spirit plant teachers, who continue to overwhelm me with their wisdom and love.
 
Thanks also for the opportunity to share my testimonial and a bit more about my experience:
 
It took me a long time to let go during the ceremony, but I have now recognized my pattern: Striving/Ego > Fear of letting go > Disconnecting with the medicine > Experiencing rejection and disappointment > Acceptance >  Breakthrough and healing. This pattern is a metaphor for my daily experience. Thank you for helping me work through it. Now that I am aware, I am confident that if I keep showing up, willing and present, that I will learn to overcome. I am tired of being afraid and I will not give up on the journey to allow, accept, and let go. On the other side of fear is peace, wisdom and bliss. Remembering that fear is love in reverse helped me during ceremony, and I was encouraged that you noticed a change in me afterwards.
 
In addition to this work, I also believe that the medicine helped me retrieve a piece of myself that was stuck in the past. I went back to a time in my early twenties when I had just left the trauma system of my birth family and entered into a new trauma system with my then-husband and his family. I had taken my habitual role of absorbing the negative energy of the people around me and carrying their trauma, manifesting it as the scapegoat/identified patient. In present day, I have left these relationships behind, but the plant teachers showed me that I was still stuck and holding on in the past. I was able to connect with that part of myself to understand what was going on. She was holding on because she still believed that she could fix and heal those people. If she could just take all their pain and dysfunction, turn it into something about herself, then she could fix herself and in that way fix them. This strategy was doomed to fail. In fact, it was not only hurting her but holding back the people she was in relationship with from their own healing. But she was unaware, had good intentions, and tried so hard. I told her I knew she did her best, but that she had to let go, that she could not fix them, she could only heal herself. I tried to help her let go to come back “home” with me to the present. That is when I called on the support from the group to help her trust and let go. I did get stuck in a loop of, “but I tried so hard” as if I was trying to convince myself that there was nothing more that I could do… perhaps the reason I was stuck is because I believed there was more I could do… and this is when Ivan came to help me. When I opened my eyes and saw that he was there to help, I immediately trusted him and felt comforted, and I moved through the experience.
 
The ceremony was deeply profound and healing. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
 
With love and gratitude,

Jesssica Vancouver

Thank you Ivan and Lana for your love guidance and support, on the healing journey we road the physical , emotional and spiritual waves together,  through the flexibility of each other we all arrived on the shore united and renewed, I have learned the true value of collective intention and how it  impacts us individually as a group and far reaching beyond our group , everyone who attends ceremony has the opportunity heal and be healed what greater gift can we receive than that, you are living in such generous and rewarding service , may you both be blessed beyond measure 

Orion Vancouver

Thanks for everything, it was one of the best experience and meaningful moment in my life.
This is my testimonial:

I was nervous because it was my first time with the medicine but I felt very safe and comfortable with the knowledge and experience of you both. Ivan and Lana guided me to reach the deepest part of myself and I released a lot of stuck energy and resentments from my heart, especially from my parents. I felt the pain and lack of love throughout my parent's lives and realized that they are exactly like me. I had built a wall made of judgments between us but all the sudden I felt so sorry for judging them my entire life and not seeing them as a whole being, with all the conflicts and pain.

My anger and judgment were replaced by so much love for them and I felt so peaceful afterward. I can't remember when was the last time I felt like that. There are many other things that came out and I'm still processing but I'm feeling much lighter and free now. Thanks Ivan and Lana for putting so much work and compassion into it, it was amazing to see all the healing happening for the entire group. I'm grateful for the universe for having attended this beautiful ceremony!

Marcio A. Vancouver

As a man born into a family of scientists, I cannot fully explain what happened during this journey with Ivan and Lana, but I know it to be true and profoundly healing.  The container of trust and safety that they hold allowed me to fully delve into the deep corners of my psyche, knowing that I would be held with loving kindness.  I feel like I emerged from my cocoon as a beautiful butterfly, and that this was the first day of my new life.  It has allowed me to trust the universe more fully, and the proof is in the pudding - we had been looking for a new home for over a month, and the perfect one has appeared two days after the ceremony, and we’re moving at the end of the month.  

Dr. Nick MD Vancouver

Looking back at this fantastic weekend, I feel nothing but gratitude to Ivan and Lana.

It feels like it was the most exquisite spiritual / mystical experience of my entire life. I have experienced a profound sense of unity with all things, a sense of insight into the ultimate nature of reality, overwhelming feelings of love and awe, and deep positive emotions such as joy, peace, and happiness.

I am writing this testimonial several weeks after the experience the beauty and magic of the event is still present in everything I feel, experience and do. I am experiencing positive changes in my attitudes towards life and to the self, as well as increased positive mood, a sense of gratitude and reduced anxiety.

Ivan and Lana are the perfect pair of facilitators and guides. Their wisdom, experience, talent and energies complement each other very well. Ivan radiates mystical energy & love and Lana radiates peace & serenity. The setting, the introduction and talk set perfect ambience for the trip. The loving and comforting atmosphere that was created made it easy to feel free and secure during the experience. The music selection was fantastic and very helpful in the process.

Jurek Vancouver

I am so grateful. It is one of the best experiences of my life and everything is different now. My entire view of spirituality and witnessing consciousness is altered to the optimal I have ever seen

I had an awareness of all that was happening and saw Ivan’s genius/ essence / consciousness that was infused in the tea. This is heaven. To experience another soul without any words. To know him without even talking to him. To see that he appears to do nothing yet is doing everything. The artist and conductor who is creating a visual in my mind that no other can see. Using his music and artistry, I experience a movie in my mind that takes me out of my body and through a cosmic journey. With my eyes open, I could see the interdimensional grid – the space between the spaces – in holographic form. I was travelling through space and time as pictures formed. I didn’t know I could create this art in my own mind. And I became aware of the genius of all artists and where this creativity comes from – Source. I witnessed myself in my

Most optimal state. The way I was created to be and it felt perfect. 

In the end, I got exactly what I came for and it was time for me to go home. 

I will treasure this experience for the rest of my life. 

Thank you so much to all for every part that you played! 

 

 
A.M. Bellia Vancouver

My biggest reality check in my ceremony with Lana and Ivan was when my soul was floating around above me, I looked down at my body and saw the way I was being at the human level. I realized how judgmental I was. Even though I don’t outwardly say it, I’m constantly judging others for who they are and who they aren’t. Through this experience, I hope to have more empathy and compassion with others.

 People say, we are our own worst enemy and it truly is because our mind is our biggest obstacle. There are so many thoughts and emotions that I’ve buried. This journey enabled me to open doors to my subconscious mind and deal with feelings that I’ve been suppressing. I feel truly emotionally liberated!

 Through sharing this journey with you all on Friday, I was able to see the beautiful souls in each and everyone of you. 

Ivan – You are a true master of creation – a true artist who used your music intuition to intentionally design the evening to be a safe haven for us to allow, accept and let go. It may seem like you did nothing that night but truly, you did everything!

Lana – 1 + 1 does equal EVERYTHING! Thank you for giving me such a positive perspective to treasure my marriage. You and Ivan are such a beautiful couple on the inside and out. I believe you both will transform many lives. I’m excited about what the future holds for you.

L.Chan Vancouver

Thank you both very much! I was able to see my life pattern quite clearly that night (in the ceremony with Ivan and Lana), so now I know I can make new choices of how I want to live my
future life.

A. Lee Vancouver

Friday night ( the ceremony with Lana and Ivan) was beautiful, that is the best way I can express it.
I always thought I had a fear of conflict or middle child peacekeeper syndrome when I would try to make different sides find common understanding. At times I thought it was a weakness and doubted my ability to have a solid opinion or be true to my beliefs because of this. After Friday I embraced this characteristic as a practice and a true gift.
After Friday I was able to feel and see a beautiful webbed ball of truths, and how so many things about the same thing can be true at the same time, even when they appear to contradict or be hypocritical.  In any situation or experience we may focus on just one web of truth at a time, a web that could brings us joy, frustration, doubt etc, even though so many other webs are true at the same time for the same experience. The amount of truths that exist for every action or experience are endless and how they influence the webs you focus on in future experiences are
also endless, like the stories we tell ourselves and find proof for over our lifetimes. But in fact so many other truths also co-exist about the same thing. On Friday, our "quiet" meditation filled with laughter, foreign languages, nausea and tears were all at the same time true experiences of transcending. None was superior, more enlightened or a better experience, they were all equal in what they gave in their own ways. And how we all reacted to the different moods in the room was also a mosaic of truths, be it frustration, acceptance, indifference or joy. And we could choose to follow one reaction, a few, all or none. This was personal and up to us, but no single reaction was the only truth.
Thinking about the endless webs of truths created a new level of tolerance and understanding for me, both towards others and to myself and about the stories that are etched from my past. I can want to exercise and be lazy at the same time, hate and love the same person, have a memory be amazing or unfulfilling, feel scared but fierce, be annoyed by my parents but always want them
in my life, see faults in others but within those faults also see the beauty within the same web. These can all be true at the same time.

Thank you all for sharing the space, and to our hosts and leaders who made this happen with so much openness and love.

Friday night ( the ceremony with Lana and Ivan) was beautiful, that is the best way I can express it.
I always thought I had a fear of conflict or middle child peacekeeper syndrome when I would try to make different sides find common understanding. At times I thought it was a weakness and doubted my ability to have a solid opinion or be true to my beliefs because of this. After Friday I embraced this characteristic as a practice and a true gift.
After Friday I was able to feel and see a beautiful webbed ball of truths, and how so many things about the same thing can be true at the same time, even when they appear to contradict or be hypocritical.  In any situation or experience we may focus on just one web of truth at a time, a web that could brings us joy, frustration, doubt etc, even though so many other webs are true at the same time for the same experience. The amount of truths that exist for every action or experience are endless and how they influence the webs you focus on in future experiences are
also endless, like the stories we tell ourselves and find proof for over our lifetimes. But in fact so many other truths also co-exist about the same thing. On Friday, our "quiet" meditation filled with laughter, foreign languages, nausea and tears were all at the same time true experiences of transcending. None was superior, more enlightened or a better experience, they were all equal in what they gave in their own ways. And how we all reacted to the different moods in the room was also a mosaic of truths, be it frustration, acceptance, indifference or joy. And we could choose to follow one reaction, a few, all or none. This was personal and up to us, but no single reaction was the only truth.
Thinking about the endless webs of truths created a new level of tolerance and understanding for me, both towards others and to myself and about the stories that are etched from my past. I can
want to exercise and be lazy at the same time, hate and love the same person, have a memory be amazing or unfulfilling, feel scared but fierce, be annoyed by my parents but always want them
in my life, see faults in others but within those faults also see the beauty within the same web. These can all be true at the same time.
Thank you all for sharing the space, and to our hosts and leaders who made this happen with so much openness and love.

 

P. Robinson Vancouver

The most important realization from my Spirit Medicine journey is for once, I experienced an out of body transcendence experience. For a moment, it kind of felt like I was dying and my soul was leaving my body! The surprising thing is that I wasn’t scared at all. I felt incredible peace and serenity. Now I know why Spirit Medicine is used as a therapy for end stage cancer. If I were ever to end up dying in a hospital, I definitely want to be high on mushrooms! LOL

My biggest reality check when my soul was floating around above me, I looked down at my body and saw the way I was being at the human level. I realized how judgmental I was. Even though I don’t outwardly say it, I’m constantly judging others for who they are and who they aren’t. Through this experience, I hope to have more empathy and compassion with others.

People say, we are our own worse enemy and it truly is because our mind is our biggest obstacle. There are so many thoughts and emotions that I’ve buried. The mushroom journey enabled me to open doors to my subconscious mind and deal with feelings that I’ve been suppressing. I feel truly emotionally liberated!

Thank you for reading these genuine words that came from my heart. It was fun journeying with you and I hope we’ll travel again soon!

Much love,

L. C. Vancouver

I’d like to say thank you and to your beautiful husband for the last healing meeting!! It was a great and amazing work that you’ve done putting all your knowledge, wisdom, kindness and compassion to help us all to get the best results from our healing journey….

My body hasn’t been experiencing so much pain afterwards this time (surprisingly). My stomach feels so good now… and although my back/neck pain is still present it’s not as bad as before…

And I’m sorry I’m getting back to you only now… I’m running extremely busy with my work nowadays (working up to 7days a week), and after work trying to find energy to be a decent mom:))But I want you to know that l love you both with Ivan and that you are now always in my heart and my soul!

Thank you!!!

Tatiana Vancouver

I am so grateful. It is one of the best experiences of my life and everything is different now. My entire view of spirituality and witnessing consciousness is altered to the optimal I have ever seen

I had an awareness of all that was happening and saw Ivan’s genius/ essence / consciousness that was infused in the tea. This is heaven. To experience another soul without any words. To know him without even talking to him. To see that he appears to do nothing yet is doing everything. The artist and conductor who is creating a visual in my mind that no other can see. Using his music and artistry, I experience a movie in my mind that takes me out of my body and through a cosmic journey. With my eyes open, I could see the inter-dimensional grid – the space between the spaces – in holographic form. I was travelling through space and time as pictures formed. I didn’t know I could create this art in my own mind. And I became aware of the genius of all artists and where this creativity comes from – Source. I witnessed myself in my Most optimal state. The way I was created to be and it felt perfect.

All the intentions I infused into the tea came true. I experienced heaven, astral travel, light language, seeing auras, seeing consciousness, and so much more.

My final piece was to acknowledge the people in my life who witness me. Who know me. Who see my essence and consciousness without me having to do anything. And this is how I view others. I see them, in their glorious beingness, in their genius. On a soul level.

My prayer is that my partner and anyone in my life will see my essence, without me having to say or do anything.

I will treasure this experience for the rest of my life.

Thank you so much to all for every part that you played!

A. M. Vancouver

A mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions.

An evening filled with experiences you will ponder and savour ,for a looong time . Ivan and Lana Rados guided meditation is a field trip to the universe , your universe . Where some healed past wounds and traumas , some were steeped in love , sensuality, sacred geometric patterns ,incredible music and tones that swept you and you became a part of ,but all were left with profoundly deepened gratitude and awe!

And that’s only the part I am able to put words to.

 

C. L. Vancouver